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ugly for a reason by Lady-Twiglet ugly for a reason by Lady-Twiglet
THANK YOU SO MUCH for the inspiring comments and revelations and laying bare, many of them have left me speechless and several have reduced me to tears. thank you @leaf-lover for giving me a DD on probably the one photograph in my gallery i hate, but i do understand why! :love:

for those who have asked, the quote that was given to me by my tutor which led to this picture is:
ĎA photograph is both a pseudo-presence and a token of absence. Like a wood fire in a room, photographs Ė especially those of people, of distant landscapes and faraway cities, of the vanished past Ė are incitements to reverie*. The sense of the unattainable that can be evoked by photographs feeds directly into the erotic feelings of those for whom desirability is enhanced by distance. The loverís photograph hidden in a married womanís wallet, the poster photograph of a rock star tacked up over an adolescents bed, the campaign-button image of a politicianís face pinned on a voterís coat, the snapshots of a cabin-driverís children clipped to the visor Ė all such talismanic uses of photographs express a feeling both sentimental and implicitly magical: the are attempts to contact or lay claim to another reality.í (Sontag, 1979:16)




EDIT-i'm seriously gobsmacked and touched by the lovely, positive, inspiring comments i'm getting on this image. i certainly wasnt expecting it. thank you so much everyone, it means an awful lot :heart:

college self portrait. no editing or post-processing, based on a susan sontag quote.

i nearly chickened out of using this for college at all, i found it very difficult as it has a lot of personal meaning and i find it difficult to post 'warts-and-all' images of myself.

explanation of the image taken from my college posting:

"the neck corset-relates to my eating disorder. i have suffered from bulimia for 15 years, and have recently started therapy for it, the corset represents the purging of food, and the restriction an eating disorder has over your life. i'm hoping that its almost past me, i'm getting there at least.

the invisible face/visible mouth again relating to the bulimia, it is amazing how your life rotates around your mouth and what you put in/take out of it when you have an ED, and i wanted to reflect that.

the taut string on my tummy relates to my body before and after children, i have never been a skinny girl but after having 2 very large children (both over 10 pounds) my body has taken a large toll (which in turn has influenced the eating disorder) and as a larger lady, its the one part of my body i feel isnt in proportion with the rest of me. the string represents the state of my tum before i had children, and how i miss it, but the purple heart is placed over my womb, because i may hate my belly, but i still love it because it gave me two beautiful children.

its a reflection on my body, on my life, mostly past (like in the quote) but also present, 'an incitement to reverie' and remembrance of what things were like before.

its a difficult picture for me, i rarely do full body self portraits but i wanted to, hopefully, do the sontag quote some justice. i dont know if thats been acheived but, even though its been hard, i sorta-kinda like the end result. i'd like it a lot more if it wasnt of me though ;)

i'd really appreciate your feedback on what the image means to you after the explanation, and i am very open about my ED so dont be afraid to ask any questions :) "


please be nice, remember its an un-edited picture so no crit on that side of things thanks! :heart:
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As somebody who suffers from Body Dysmorphia and Social Anxiety, the bravery in ugly for a reason by `ladytwiglet inspires me beyond words. If I could be half as candid with my body one day I would feel proud. I hope this image can be a small beacon of hope for others and may we all one day find peace and contentment in the mirror. ( Featured by leaf-lover )
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Meadow-Leaf Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014
Well said.
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SarahArsalan Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
truly amazing, I wish I was brave like that.
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teejott71 Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2014
please step by side, so we can see the ugly thing!? *smile* wonderful pic!!!;) (Wink) Clap :happybounce: 
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ZeusLike Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014
awesome skull tattoos .. totally badass
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EbbtideCheque Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is beautiful. <3. I am currently undergoing therapy for an eating disorder and I find it so difficult to express how I'm feeling. This is inspiring, the way that you are able to so strongly express yourself both currently and in the past. Thank you, for posting this. You are a strong and beautiful woman.
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foliophil Featured By Owner May 14, 2013
Saw this photo on tumblr and found my way here. This is inspiring, powerful, and beyond beautiful, as are you. A true artist. Brava!
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Lady-Twiglet Featured By Owner May 15, 2013  Professional Photographer
oooh dont suppose you have a link to the tumblr post? and thank you so much! :love:
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foliophil Featured By Owner May 22, 2013
Here you go! No worries.;)


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xXMedicXx Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is beautiful
I stumbled across it on accident but I'm very very glad I did.
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AliceUnderland Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You know what I see? I see a beautiful human being not afraid to show her true self. A truly wonderful person who has a lot of courage and a beautiful body. You have my respect dear lady. :aww:
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