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ugly for a reason by Lady-Twiglet ugly for a reason by Lady-Twiglet
THANK YOU SO MUCH for the inspiring comments and revelations and laying bare, many of them have left me speechless and several have reduced me to tears. thank you @leaf-lover for giving me a DD on probably the one photograph in my gallery i hate, but i do understand why! :love:

for those who have asked, the quote that was given to me by my tutor which led to this picture is:
ĎA photograph is both a pseudo-presence and a token of absence. Like a wood fire in a room, photographs Ė especially those of people, of distant landscapes and faraway cities, of the vanished past Ė are incitements to reverie*. The sense of the unattainable that can be evoked by photographs feeds directly into the erotic feelings of those for whom desirability is enhanced by distance. The loverís photograph hidden in a married womanís wallet, the poster photograph of a rock star tacked up over an adolescents bed, the campaign-button image of a politicianís face pinned on a voterís coat, the snapshots of a cabin-driverís children clipped to the visor Ė all such talismanic uses of photographs express a feeling both sentimental and implicitly magical: the are attempts to contact or lay claim to another reality.í (Sontag, 1979:16)

EDIT-i'm seriously gobsmacked and touched by the lovely, positive, inspiring comments i'm getting on this image. i certainly wasnt expecting it. thank you so much everyone, it means an awful lot :heart:

college self portrait. no editing or post-processing, based on a susan sontag quote.

i nearly chickened out of using this for college at all, i found it very difficult as it has a lot of personal meaning and i find it difficult to post 'warts-and-all' images of myself.

explanation of the image taken from my college posting:

"the neck corset-relates to my eating disorder. i have suffered from bulimia for 15 years, and have recently started therapy for it, the corset represents the purging of food, and the restriction an eating disorder has over your life. i'm hoping that its almost past me, i'm getting there at least.

the invisible face/visible mouth again relating to the bulimia, it is amazing how your life rotates around your mouth and what you put in/take out of it when you have an ED, and i wanted to reflect that.

the taut string on my tummy relates to my body before and after children, i have never been a skinny girl but after having 2 very large children (both over 10 pounds) my body has taken a large toll (which in turn has influenced the eating disorder) and as a larger lady, its the one part of my body i feel isnt in proportion with the rest of me. the string represents the state of my tum before i had children, and how i miss it, but the purple heart is placed over my womb, because i may hate my belly, but i still love it because it gave me two beautiful children.

its a reflection on my body, on my life, mostly past (like in the quote) but also present, 'an incitement to reverie' and remembrance of what things were like before.

its a difficult picture for me, i rarely do full body self portraits but i wanted to, hopefully, do the sontag quote some justice. i dont know if thats been acheived but, even though its been hard, i sorta-kinda like the end result. i'd like it a lot more if it wasnt of me though ;)

i'd really appreciate your feedback on what the image means to you after the explanation, and i am very open about my ED so dont be afraid to ask any questions :) "

please be nice, remember its an un-edited picture so no crit on that side of things thanks! :heart:
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Given 2010-02-20
As somebody who suffers from Body Dysmorphia and Social Anxiety, the bravery in ugly for a reason by `ladytwiglet inspires me beyond words. If I could be half as candid with my body one day I would feel proud. I hope this image can be a small beacon of hope for others and may we all one day find peace and contentment in the mirror. ( Featured by leaf-lover )
Hazelgee Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
There's not many that would brave a candid shot like this. Props to you hon, this is a wonderful piece and the description is very thought provoking. Well deserving the DD!

Such a shame that so many of us have terrible relationships and feelings about our own bodies, especially when others (like our partners) don't see any problem at all!
scuby8us Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2015
ComixThreeSevens Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
You're so freaking disgusting. No, I don't mean the fact that you're overweight. But you're a half-naked slut who wanted to shock everybody.
Lady-Twiglet Featured By Owner May 22, 2015  Professional Photographer
I freaking love this comment :') 
ComixThreeSevens Featured By Owner May 22, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
You're a sack of meat. A very dumb, shameless one. Your parents must be blaming themselves every single day.
Lady-Twiglet Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2015  Professional Photographer
no, but I'm ROYALLY fucking my kids up :P Keep going, you haven't even remotely touched a nerve, you're not trying hard enough :D
Jevenanda Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2015
Excuse you. This comment is completely out of line. her breasts aren't showing completely, and her twat isn't seen, it's art and you either accept that or get the chuck off this page and site. I mean seriously. It covers as much as most women who wear swimsuits. Are you saying that's disgusting too? What about when men show off their bodies? The only difference is women usually have a smoother landscape and some extra fat deposits that produce milk. So please. Stop being a slut-shaming bigot. Thank you and have a pleasant fucking day.
ComixThreeSevens Featured By Owner May 22, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Slut shaming isn't a sign of bigotry, it's called decency and morality. None of your arguments is even remotely, idiot.
zappadust Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2015
First of all decency and morality are both fairly subjective. Sam Harris gives us the tool of morality being defined by that which helps society versus that which hurts society, but I doubt you have a terribly compelling argument for how a semi-naked artistic photo buried on a rather large website could have much detriment to society as a whole.

Secondly slut shaming usually has more to do with a self-perceived flaw in the shamer rather than anything in the shamee. I care not to guess what your issue might be, but it is up to you to deal with and you should kindly leave others out of it.

Thirdly, on a site where nudity is far more the rule them the exception the fact that you chose to single this photo out for your rancor and bile suggests that it does indeed have to do with her weight, a hypothesis backed up by your preemptive denial that such is the case.

And finally you seem awfully quick to assert that others are idiots when you yourself have trouble finishing a simple sentence.

Though nudity does not necessarily correlate with sexuality, you seem to be conflating the two, thus I think this quote by Heinlein is appropriate: "The second most preposterous notion [that H. Sapiens has ever dreamed up] is that copulation is inherently sinful."

To Lady-Twiglet: I love this peice. Shakespeare said (more or less) that the purpose of art is to hold a mirror up to nature, I believe you have achieved that goal in this photo.

The fact that it was difficult for you and that you hate this photo in particular helps add to it's message, and the unedited, unvarnished look lends it a feel of gritty realism and reinforces the fact that this is your body, as nature has made it: flawed but never the less far more lovely and, yes, closer to the norm than those displayed in photographs would normally have us believe. An unaltered image of one's own body is about as personal as one can get, yet the esoteric imagery of the corset, string and heart add on to that, laying yourself far more bare than just naked flesh on its own.

The only criticism I feel I can offer at this point is the bit of your bottoms there in the lower right corner, I feel they throw the composition off a bit.

I applaud your creativity and your bravery, and I'm glad you seem capable of ignoring the ignorant things said by such philistines as this character.

Thank you in advance for reading the pretentious rantings of an overblown windbag such as myself.
Meadow-Leaf Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014
Well said.
SarahArsalan Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
truly amazing, I wish I was brave like that.
teejott71 Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2014
please step by side, so we can see the ugly thing!? *smile* wonderful pic!!!;) (Wink) Clap :happybounce: 
ZeusLike Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014
awesome skull tattoos .. totally badass
EbbtideCheque Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is beautiful. <3. I am currently undergoing therapy for an eating disorder and I find it so difficult to express how I'm feeling. This is inspiring, the way that you are able to so strongly express yourself both currently and in the past. Thank you, for posting this. You are a strong and beautiful woman.
foliophil Featured By Owner May 14, 2013
Saw this photo on tumblr and found my way here. This is inspiring, powerful, and beyond beautiful, as are you. A true artist. Brava!
Lady-Twiglet Featured By Owner May 15, 2013  Professional Photographer
oooh dont suppose you have a link to the tumblr post? and thank you so much! :love:
foliophil Featured By Owner May 22, 2013
Here you go! No worries.;)

xXMedicXx Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is beautiful
I stumbled across it on accident but I'm very very glad I did.
AliceUnderland Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You know what I see? I see a beautiful human being not afraid to show her true self. A truly wonderful person who has a lot of courage and a beautiful body. You have my respect dear lady. :aww:
AngryBliss Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2012
I like the neck choker and tattoos but and I give you kudos for posting this. I hate my body and I hate being fat. I just don't find it attractive.
Lady-Twiglet Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Professional Photographer
me neither! thank you for your comment :) x
TheDouchebagsofDA Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2012
You is not ugly. Let me say! Anybody is pretty, beautiful anyway you are. Trust me. I learn a long time ago about that. I have people in my life to look up to people that love them for who they are and no it doesn't make you cocky our a dick. It makes you pround for who you are. You should be proud to be who you is sexy lady!
jedibill1 Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2012
Should in no way hate that beautiful belly it is so sexy and the stretch marks actually seal the deal for me. Stretch marks are so beautifully sexy because they are so unique to the individual
person. You truly have a beautiful sexy body
HeavenlyOdyssey Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You know it take some serious guts to do a picture like this, to hold nothing back and be so vulnerable.
And I applaud it.
I cannot even begin to express my frustration with people that see pictures like this and leave disgusting comments.
Its pictures like this that really inspire me.
reban Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2012
Holy shitake mushroom. Looking at this was like a kick in the head! You have a very very powerful picture here. I never thought your body loked ugly, not for one second.
Mafia-Queen Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012  Student Photographer
You're not ugly, you're really beautiful!!!!! I know how you feel though, a lot of the time I think about making myself sick after I eat but it's like I can't stop eating, i guess it's like the opposite of bulimia, I don't know, but I've always wished to be thin, I've always been the biggest out of my friends, I've always been called fay and ugly, and sometime I just want to get a knife a cut the fat off. Whenever I get a tiny bit of self confidence, someone at my school manages to take it away, But it's people like you who make me feel better, because the fact that you were brave enough to post this makes me feel like I can be proud of who I am. it sounds silly but that's how i feel. So Thank You <3
burg3rking Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2012
you inspire me so much donna x
Lady-Twiglet Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2012  Professional Photographer
ahh sweetheart, thank you :love:
Edward1948 Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2012
very nice
OffScreen Featured By Owner May 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I love this photo so much. As someone who lives with bulimia, I too understand the toll it takes on the mind, body and soul.
stay strong. <3
MieuTheCheagle Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2012
This is really beautiful, I hope you will have everything what makes you happy!
JackEmerald Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2012
People come in all shapes, sizes, and colors, and there's no "right" or "wrong" combination. Never once did I see a picture of yours and think "She's ugly" or "she's too fat". You're a very beautiful woman. :)
Vivienne-Mercier Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Knowing the story behind this photo makes it even lovelier. You have a voluptuous body and should not be ashamed of it. :heart:
graceallen94 Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2012  Student Photographer
These are the type of photo's that inspire me. I don't want to see skinny woman in photo's I want to see woman with curves! I love that you've come round to photographing your self like this. I could never do this due to people sneering about what I'd look like. I'm only 17 and still have things laying ahead of me, but having to live in a world where skinny is the new beautiful blocks that fact that; I'm beautiful!
You are a curvy woman, and you are an inspiration to me! It must be so hard having to go through what you did/have/still are! I've never been through that, but I've been bullied because I have never ever in my life been skinny. I was made to be a big girl and to flaunt off the curves that many people don't have now days!

You are beautiful. The way I see it... Bigger woman are more beautiful! they have better personalities (some use this to hide the fact they hate themselves) but it makes that person beautiful, they have more to love, they have bigger and warmer hearts. All of these things are what the glamour models now days don't have!

I am glad to see a big woman in a photograph. And this is what I want to go on doing once I've finished my course. I want to photograph role models for the bigger women so the rest of the curved women have someone to look up to and know they aren't the only ones!

I 'LOVE' your photo and your brave for doing it if you've been through what you have! <3
Ellorae Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2012
This is a really brave image to display to the world at large - your honesty and courage is inspiring and you have made me feel like applauding you and hugging you all at the same time! This is a truly amazing image xXx
Efflectum Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2012  Professional Artist
Wow just wow, this image has made my day!
eevee-lily Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2012   Photographer
I am so glad that sick fecker got banned for the nasty comments he made, I am overweight, I have an eating disorder and a physical illness which means I have hardly any mobility, yet I have been spat at and yelled at by people in a car following me ,screaming at me to lose weight (even when I have been in my wheelchair)
it is people like that chit that got banned here and people I have dealt with that cause some overweight people to commit suicide, so I hope they can sleep at night
my son was bullied by a girl (he also has same health issues as me) who clearly has anorexia yet we would never be nasty to her
well done you for being so brave to make such a lovely self portrait, it is wonderful
I only ever take portraits of my face and they have to be from a high angle so I can hide my weight, I would never have the courage to do a portrait like yours (( hugs))
chinaroses Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
I love you. You help me put my own body in perspective, and inspire me to be brave and truly look at myself.
MouseMakesMess Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
It's actually quite sad reading the hateful comments on this piece. Society has this idealistic view of what women should look like, and when someone comes along who is different, then people must think that it is disgusting.

The truth of the matter is that we all come in different shapes and sizes. Too much pressure if put on women to be a size 8 or to concentrate on losing all of their baby weight as soon as they have given birth.

I think you are very brave for posting this image and whilst you may hate your body, you're still very beautiful to us and a very strong, independent woman.
QuoIddon Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2012
i personally think that this is a beatiful photograph, well posed, and a description of a lady who has lived a full life, with all the joy, and all that worries that this entails. To me it represents a woman who is both very real, and should be (though i doubt that this is the case) proud of all the imperfections and scars that go with living that life. each little mark tells part of the overall story, and as with any structure the start is perfect, level, and aesthetically pleasing, however for it to be beautiful it must have been lived in, and carry the marks of being loved and used to it's full potential. I would love this to hang on my wall
jenepooh Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2012  Professional General Artist
:love: Still tempting to do one myself. You're still amazing.
Immortal-Archangel Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
this doesnt usually happen with me - but in the interpretation to this picture, especially the description behind the taut string -that touching last line made my eyes well with tears. the pictures hold such original beauty in them, theres no hiding no shadows nothing, and somehow your body shows itself in its true originality.
SweetPoisonousVenom Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
i am beyond speechless. this is so beautiful, so sad, and you are such a beautiful person [inside AND out] for sharing this. so brave. i have admired your work, but now i truly admire you. <3
ORANGELIGHTNING7 Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2012  Student General Artist
absolutely stunning and what a journey youve had, I love this! totally favourited! (and i dont do that often!)
buttters Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2012
looooooooove this <3
WickedDetective Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2012
You have such sensual curves and beautiful skin,I love your lips and the tattoos too....
My-Oblivion-Key Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2012  Student Writer
This is really a wonderful artistic vision, and executed with perfection. Even though you provided your explanation, there are still many ways to look at this photo. A very moving concept. And you may have a huge gut, but so what? I personally think you're quite pretty regardless.
pikimori Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh gosh, this is beautiful... I've always wanted to be either thin, or the size of the person in this picture. I'm... In the middle. I can't gain weight where I want to. This picture is just so beautiful... I wish I could have this body to call my own.
Miyori999 Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2011   General Artist
This is wonderful. After reading the description, I had to wipe my eyes, particularly because of the thought you really put into this.
Every personality is shaped by personal experience, and every person with their own personality brings to the table unique qualities, and gifts that can help them in the work force--like the kid whose mom was saved after an accedent. The child may become a determined and strong willed, wanting to become a doctor and not letting anyone tell them otherwise.
Sometimes we reflect those experiences in our bodies as well-The scar you got at five, climbing a tree and having a blast--the tatoo you got when your child was born (My mom).
I was always underweight up until I was about 9 years old. I was raised in an exceptionally poor family, and sometimes we wouldn't have anything to eat the last few days of the month. Things got worse, I went into foster care, and I refused to eat because I was unhappy, missing my mother. Things got better. I went home, and mama was making enough money to support us properly. But now, for the past 7 years (I'm 17) I've been struggling to keep my weight down. I feel awful sometimes, but then I realize, I'm stubborn too. I'm difficult, better with my earnings than any person I know, and I know things can always get better, and things will get better more often than they get worse. My personality was shaped by my growing up (I haven't had time for anything besides growing up) just as my body was.
This picture really even has a meaning to me, really your explanation, that I'm having difficulty wording.
Thank you. This photo is for you, but it means a lot to me. :clap: By the way :above: Is how I do speechless.
Tinkerbird08 Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
wow. just wow.
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